I have officially been a stay at home mom for a full month now and what a month it has been. It’s been exhausting, challenging and an absolute whirlwind! But it has also been so wonderful, I love being home with Brynlee, playing with her, cuddling with her and watching her learn has been amazing and I am so grateful to have this opportunity.
Making the decision to stay home was actually a lot harder than I thought it would be. From the moment I had Brynlee, I knew that I wanted to stay home with her and returning to work was really hard for me. While everyone said it would get easier, it never did. Unfortunately, as my maternity leave came to an end, we were not in the place financially for me to be able to stay home.
Shortly after I did return to work we realized it would be best for our family if we could figure out a way for me to stay home. So, while we had been talking about me staying home for a while, when the things that needed to happen to make that work happened, it ended up happening very fast and our decision was made over the course of one weekend (WOW! That was a lot of happens…). Making the decision to go from two incomes to one in that short amount of time was very stressful and overwhelming to me. Landon seemed so sure of this decision, which helped me have faith in it, but I was still second guessing that we should do this. I mean yes, I knew that it would be best for our family, but I worried about all of the unknown. Even the morning that I informed our daycare and my work that I would be leaving I was asking Landon again if this was the right thing to do at this time or if we should wait for a little while.
However, from the moment I started telling people and making it official things started happening that validated our decision and now I can say without a doubt that we did make the best decision for our family. Brynlee hasn’t been sick (knock on wood) since I’ve been home. Things run a lot more smoothly around the house and we are able to spend quality time together as a family instead of always trying to play catch up on the weekends. All and all, our lives have become a lot less stressful and a lot happier.
Brynlee and I fell into a pretty good routine in that first week. She loves going places, so we try to get out of the house at least once a day, running errands or meeting up with friends. I still try to wake up at around 5am so I have a little “me” time before Brynlee wakes up, you know, so I can finish my cup of coffee before it gets cold. Lately Brynlee has been going through a phase where she wakes up a couple of times during the night and I will have to go and soothe her to get her back to sleep, so there are mornings where waking up early doesn’t happen. And that is okay. We are taking each day as it comes and learning what works best for us. Some days are hard, really hard, but it’s so rewarding. I feel truly blessed to be able to stay home and take care of my family and each and every cuddle, snuggle and smile I get from Brynlee reaffirms the decision we made.